So, have you ever experienced a time where it seems like your emotions are being pulled in a million different directions? Some might call it “your formative years” others might name it “growing up” but I have a different name for it. You want to hear my thoughts on the matter? I can give it many names. I say it is challenging, annoying, confusing, overwhelming, etc… And believe me, I am not hiding under any veil to think this period of life is even close to being finished. I won’t lie, sometimes I wish it didn’t come with so many conflicting emotions…geez. This overwhelming feeling thing has been happening to me a lot lately. Sometimes I have this inner argument with myself that goes something like this, “Goodness I hate this feeling. Oh hush, you have it made. What are you complaining for? You have a family, a job, and opportunities out the wazoo to travel and explore. There should be NO complaining from you!” Sound familiar to anyone??? Ok maybe it is just me. Must focus…on to the real subject of this post.
Summer Vacation.
Like I said before, I think everyone goes through this time in life where you are trying to figure out who you are going to be and what you are going to do with your life. Well, I am getting to know who I am and have a pretty good idea on what I am going to do in life. I have been growing and changing all year long and have adapted quite well to my new way of life. Currently, the only problem is this pesky summer vacation business. See, I am a teacher. This means we work REALLY hard for 9 months and then get 3 months of vacation. This time off is very much appreciated but it has been very strange thus far. Now, I have a semi-unique situation on my hands. I normally live in a different city, different country, and even a different continent than where I am currently located for the next five weeks. Right now I am in a place you would call home. Now, I am with family and friends that I haven’t been around for more than a week or two in a whole year. Now, I am away from the friends and surroundings I have called home for the past year. Sometimes, I wonder what I am doing here, where do I fit in a place that is supposed to be the most comfortable for me? This is not comfortable. This is weird, just plain weird. It may seem odd to use this choice of words but I have no other way to explain it.
My question for today is how do you manage such things as these? How do I effectively transition back into a place I call home that is not really my home right now, re-connect with friends who I have not seen in a long time but still desire a friendship with, and actively prepare for a new school year coming in September, in a different country? Doing all this mind you, during a time in one’s life where you are lucky to be able to figure out just about anything….ok maybe I am not that bad.
All I know is that I will be spending a lot of time in prayer over the next three months…cause I know that is the only thing that will get me through this summer vacation we (I) started wishing for around February.
If you think about it…I would greatly appreciate any and all prayers! It is the only way we make it through life.
Until next time…
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